Masks Galore!

Many of us are living lives in which we put a facade of confidence and pride that nobody sees the real essence that's hiding inside, craving for the chance to show itself...to proclaim to the world that this is the real me, this is what i really feel, and this is what i truly am inside. How many of us can honestly say that "what you see is what you get"? I wish i could...but the fact of the matter is that sometimes the world might not be receptive of our true thoughts and emotions, and in order to be accepted as a friend, we put on "masks" to hide the so called "ugly" side of us and we keep it hidden so well that even we ourselves find it hard to understand our own deepest honest feelings. Often we also use these masks to convey the message that "Hey! I'm stronger than you, I'm better looking than you, I am smarter than you, in short I'm BETTER than you" when deep inside, we can't even accept ourselves for who we really are. How many of us are living our lives this way? Why do we have to? For self-esteem? To feel better about ourselves? What's the use of everyone else thinking that they are inferior to you when deep inside, you feel that you are nothing? Why do we need to compare ourselves with others anyway? Aren't we all special? Aren't we all unique in our own ways? Why strive to be a mirror image of someone else whom we think is better looking, or better behaved, or better in any other way when we can work to just be the best we can as ourselves? This post was caused by a river of thoughts which engulfed me today when somebody purposely tried to irk me by doing something which he knew would hurt my feelings and make me feel down, but did it anyway to try and give me the impression that he was better than me and that i didn't stand a chance against him in a certain issue. The funny thing was that i felt that i could see right true the grand charade and i wonder, why? would it make him feel better? I just acted ignorant, as usual cause i felt he was lame. But it did send me a message about him which i doubt he intended to send. Was i really that observant? or was it just a figment of my wild imagination...I'll never know, but it did remind me of a song i wrote a long time ago "What I'm Not Saying" which I hope might get some people thinking. The message was taken from a poem i read once upon a time, and the words are reflections of my thoughts then, and now.